starting over AGAIN..

zen just left my place because he had originally called to see if i wanted to have an ics session before my interview, then i told him i was eating and i had an interview at 1- so he said he could see me after. after i had the interview, i came to my apartment and called him. we just checked to see if there were any other housing resources besides champ to register for massachusetts housing and he said that he thought that was all they had after we looked. i said to him, "well maybe since it's on the east coast- they don't have a lot of subsidized or accessible housing resources." then zen said, "yeah." because when i think about their cost of living, it's definitely MORE than minnesota and minnesota seems to have more resources but they probably aren't at the same quality as the resources on the east coast. i'll just have to work my way back up again, similar to my situation in minnesota because when i think back to my very FIRST apartment in minneapolis (which i was in the same area today of the apartment- i just needed to go down the avenue next to the convention center- i didn't actually see it today though), then i was moved to the apartment in burnsville after my grandma and her friend carol finally came to their senses and didn't listen to the case managers claiming "there's a housing shortage" every damn time my grandma would ask about moving me. my grandma and carol finally found a new apartment in burnsville, which i lived at while they gave my grandma the same shitty story of "housing shortage" again.. so i never actually moved until my grandma was DEAD- i decided to take shit into my own hands and get kicked out of the shithole which was SUPPOSED to be a "smoke-free environment" and it even had a sign CLAIMING that when you came into the entryway to call to be let in the apartment CLAIMING that it was a "smoke-free environment". when my neighbor on the side of my bedroom wall was smoking (as he usually did- he ended up dying of lung cancer), i beat on my wall and yelled, "YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE FUCKIN SMOKING! THIS IS A NON-SMOKING APARTMENT!" and I was the one to bare the punishment for someone smoking when i supposedly caused could've caused damage to the property (have you actually seen me before? i'm so little that it's definitely hard to believe i could've caused damage). i was also frustrated by the caretaker of the apartment at the time, who was obsessed with me- so i'd always bitch about his "fat wife" so he'd stop listening to me and GO AWAY(because who in their RIGHT MIND would wanna listen to someone calling their wife fat?). my cousin joe even came to my apartment once to witness the obsessive dick of a caretaker sitting in the room across the hall from me when the caretaker could've been DOING HIS ACTUAL FUCKING JOB. so i'm definitely not crazy or making this shit up about the caretaker just to make my behavior seem acceptable. i found out later when i moved to my last apartment that the obsessive caretaker must've got fired or something because my nurse sees people from that apartment and she said that he didn't work there anymore. so i'm thinking my complaints to his boss (who actually listened to me and did his damn job, he was the other caretaker of the apartment but had more power than the obsessed bastard) must've made a difference. joe had given me some resources to sue the apartment for kicking me out when the environment was poor but i was too busy trying to focus on getting moved into my new apartment that my case manager actually found for me which was on marshall in st. paul- but it was just a temporary apartment that i signed a lease for- so i had to move to this apartment after my lease was up. this apartment is alright. i just need a job to keep me occupied and doing something constructive so i don't have time to think negatively. i can't see myself settling for this place though.
i had the job interview today and i went to it alone (without fredrick or my job coach- i usually have someone accompanying me just in case something happens but i figured i'd be ok going independent today), the guy who was interviewing me asked me to tell him about myself and my job history. i'm almost positive that i actually told him everything CORRECTLY. after i told him about working at the superbowl experience when the superbowl came to minnesota, he said, "so you have lots of customer service experience then?.." and i said, "yeah.. i have experience in customer service." so i hope that's an advantage for me? it should be, considering the job i'm interviewing for IS a job in hospitality.